new life

I have been here @ mama's house for 2&1/2 weeks. So far I don't regret the decision we've made to live here with her in order to bring her home but some days I am very restless. She seemed so grateful to get back here at first but is becoming more and more distant every day. It is likely the disorder itself as we have chosen not to force medication to keep her present. There is great reward in knowing the right thing to do and being free to do it but the rewards are mostly in the "knowing" since she shows almost no signs of appreciation most of the time. It is so much like caring for an infant. Although she may show great distress when unhappy she shows very little emotion of happiness. I pray every day for her to be freed from her discomfort and distress.